A Younger Me, and a Suicide Ideating Boyfriend

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Trigger warning: mention of suicidal ideation, mental health intervention and reckless driving. When I was 15 years old, my boyfriend at the time shared with me that sometimes he would drive too fast, running red lights, etc., just to see what would happen. Because there was a part of him that wanted to die.  I was deep into therapy and …

I heard myself in another Mother today

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I heard myself in another mother at the beach today. The gentle but firm, almost cautious tone.The endless listening as her child did not respond to her questions but continued to share the internal mental dialogue that was running in his mind.The timers, and gentle reminders.The carefully expressed, calculated front loading.The patience and softness in her heart as it was …