I experienced a massive transformation last night.
That’s the thing about transformation – it really can happen in an instant. Simultaneously I understand that its not just that instant. It is a cumulative effect of so many different factors coming together at once and saying, “it’s time”.
I had been receiving a lot of messages recently like blue butterflies, lady bugs, and other messages, signs and symbols (to me) of transformation. I knew it was coming but I didn’t know how, when or what it would look like.
Would it be energetic? Physical? A significant outer event as a catalyst for change?
Would it be gentle? Aggressive? Sudden?
Would I enjoy it or would I crumble?
As I write the word crumble, I am reminded that less than a week ago I had prominent tower moment sensations in my body. It was a strong awareness of the sensations that have come to my body during previous dark nights of the soul or significant tower moment periods – because let’s face it, often our tower moments are more than just a moment, wouldn’t that be nice!
I had these sensations but in a much more manageable way. I had the fatigue, the fluttery-feelings in my chest as though I had been sobbing for days, the sense of weariness – each of the all too familiar reminders of tower moments of the past. I had the sensations of internal crumbling, shedding, letting go, allowing the pieces to fall away with the deep knowing that it was how it was meant to be.
If you’ve been following my work for a while, you’ll likely know that I believe we experience life as a spiral – continuously coming back to the same things, only through a different lens; a different version of self. This gifts us the opportunities to unearth new layers, see how far we’ve come, approach things from a more healed or evolved version of self.
What I didn’t experience with these tower moment sensations was the outer chaos. The distress. The fear. The confusion. The grasping. I was acutely aware of the signs of how far I’ve come. That I was given this gift of experiencing these sensations from a new version of self. One that knew I was safe, that I was held by Spirit, my energetic support team, and most importantly, that I was held by myself. That my soul already knows the way and that I was being shifted to exactly who I needed to be and where I needed to be it, to support my next layers of unfolding.
Last night as I was getting into bed I was receiving more messages about transformation. “It is time”. My Higher Self and energetic support team were telling me, it was time for a significant soul retrieval which would support the greater transformation that is unfolding – both for myself and for my family. We often heal in family units – if we allow it and do the work for it – and we will often see various characters playing roles in the greater healing unfolding. Sometimes this looks like disruptors or big outer events that create catalysts for change. Other times we see it as certain individuals within a family unit coming to similar cycles of healing around the same time. One person’s subtle shifts ripple out and create an effect on the other, and so on. And of course, we all have free will and sometimes one person will continue to change and the other chooses not to participate. In these scenarios, often the person who is dedicated to their evolutional growth will inevitably outgrow the one who is choosing to stay the same. We even see this in situations where, as an outsider, it appears as though the discomfort of staying the same must far outweigh the discomfort of change – and yet, some people don’t, or, take a very long time to do so, while the other is now several cycles beyond and truly living in a very different reality by then than the person who chose to stay the same.
Thankfully for us, last night was not this scenario.
First, I was told very clearly, “it is time”. They – as in, my energetic support team and Higher Self – told me about the soul retrieval that was ready to take place, as well as some major energetic shifts that were ready to happen for my partner. While I do assist my partner energetically at times with his consent, I am careful to stay in my own lane when information comes in in this way. He was half asleep, I wasn’t about to wake him and ask for consent to work on him – and, I knew I had my own work to do for myself. When we are eager to see healthy changes in our loved ones, we can end up forgetting to create space to do the work for ourselves. I offered the basics of calling in my partner’s Higher Self and setting intentions for safety, protection and the highest and best for my partner in what was clearly going to be done whether I was involved or not, and then I stepped back. I observed for a moment or two and then removed myself so that I could be fully present with myself.
Of course I did my cord cutting, grounding, set the energetic container and any intentions I felt called to but mainly I was an observer of my own retrieval. The stage had been set by all the other work I’ve been doing up until this point – as is often the case with big shifts in energy. First the whole left side of my body was energetically cleared to allow more flow and openness to receiving, then my whole energy body was rebalanced. I watched as the energy began to flow as it should and how deeply I was now able to ground. I then watched as my energetic support team lifted a shell of my body off of me and carried it up and away and as it dissolved, I watched as all these lost, abandoned, hidden, forgotten or shamed parts of my soul self began to drift down and land, safely in my body. From here, they made a home. This is as it should be – all parts of us, welcome, loved, safe and connected. From that space of love and safety they don’t have to act out in all the ways that disrupt or disturb us. They can play a higher role. One where they’re not shouting to be seen, heard, acknowledged, felt or loved – like a toddler crying out for attention or a teenager behaving poorly just aching to be seen or held by the unconditional love of a parent.
I have done hundreds of soul retrievals for myself and others, and I don’t know if that work ever truly ends. I can’t say if we eventually reach a place where every single lost part has come home. This is part of our soul’s evolutionary process as a human being.
When I woke this morning and checked in with myself, reflecting on some of the dream messages I received and how I felt, I received the message very clearly “more of your soul has now come home, than has in any other lifetime [as a human]”. If stars and magic were a sensation, that is what I was filled with in that moment. I checked in with my grounding and saw that suddenly my roots spanned several meters in all directions, and they sent a golden energetic force field up from their far reaching tips that surrounded and encompassed me fully. This is a vision I’ve been shown a lot this year, but never have the roots spanned the distance that they did today. My energy and my safety is rooted far beyond where I physically stand, this is the container for my own healing and growth; the container is beyond me, and yet, it is me.
I don’t yet know how or where these transformations will show up in my physical realm, but I am safe in the knowing that all is aligned with my highest and best, and the highest and best of everyone involved. I am safe to flow where my intuition guides me and I trust in the deep inner knowing, that as I follow this guidance, I will be led exactly where I need to be. I don’t know that it will take me somewhere easy – I am not naive. This is not my first time round this spiral. This deep inner knowing and sense of safety does not mean that I will be led to a life of ease, it means that I can rest in the knowing that wherever it leads, it is where I am meant to be. That I can sense into softness, when life and the world feel hard. That my prayers for grace to move through me will be answered, as they always are. That when it comes time for me to face whatever is next in my path – whether perceived in my human brain as good or bad – I will do so with a team of energetic support and higher guidance alongside me.
Again, if you’ve been following my work for a while or working with me personally or through my on-demand offerings, you will know that I believe we all have this power. We are all intuitive, we are all psychic, we all have gifts that will bring healing to ourselves and the world if used appropriately. There are massive energetic shifts happening all over the planet right now, and they could be happening within you, too. Are you already seeing them? If you haven’t connected with your innate gifts of seeing, are you feeling it or sensing it in other ways? Something I make a point of discussing in some of my offerings is that you don’t need to be able to see with your third eye to be able to receive intuitive guidance. There are many ways, and it can look different for different people. I am not special for having this experience, I simply see it in a different way than some. I have done a lot of work to clear, open and connect with my intuitive gifts and it has become obvious that they are a large part of my purpose here on earth for this lifetime.
I’d love to hear from you! Are you noticing these shifts in your life or in your loved ones? Are your regular practices no longer cutting it, or are you being shown different ways to do things? Have you connected with your innate intuitive gifts or are they still buried beneath societal conditioning or other barriers?
On a semi-related note, yesterday I released my 5 Week Series – Meditation + Energy Healing Transmissions for Complex Chronic Diseases, Health, and Navigating Life! This is a gently altered, on demand version of the 5-week group that I have been, and continue to offer live, virtual, through an internal medicine clinic here in Vancouver since April 2024. The feedback I have received from beginners through to advanced has been profound. You can find some of their testimonials here, titled “Meditation and Energy Balancing Virtual Group”. Many people who are unable to access my work through the clinic have asked for a way to connect with this program outside of the clinic, which prompted this creation. If you have been looking for a way to deepen your practice or begin the process of reconnecting with yourself and your intuition, this is a great step to take. More details of what to expect and what you’ll receive, can be found here or through my shop.
